hell ..... so REAL.....

If you think the devil is playing games with you then you might want to look again he knows you he study's you and he know how to get up underneath your finger nail like a tiny piece of shattered glass you can't see but you know is there and the pain hurts to much to try to dig around and release it from your finger but when you do decide to extract the splinters it seems like the hurt continues for awhile and it may even get worst before it get betters. I am starting to see that is how sin works in your life and How God can truly deliver you from things and that sometimes alot of the times but not all of the time you have to face the fear head on and declare the victory. Because God has given you the strength to over come all things....lol Amen Amen I am more than a conquer through Jesus Christ whom Strengthens me.

I went to church this morning SO NOT MY WILL BUT GODS....you know he gives you free will. But I made it. I sat out in the audience this morning and I really down in my spirit kept trying tell myself or should I say Satan kept trying to tell me I didnt have anything to be thankful for but boy was he lying. I have so much to be thankful for my father has done so much for me.

On just the physically relm I woke up and was able to look around and see my sisters all three of them were in church with me this morning and that is definately a blessing. And I see and feel God working in their hearts and lifes and tilling the grown so that he can plant blessings and works of the ministry in them.

Right now my spirit is dancing my spirit is celebrating and I am SHOUTING BECAUSE I KNOW GOD HAS ALREADY WORKED IT OUT. I can shout to him...I can praise him and I can thank him because Jesus has already worked it out. Yall know God is a mighty GOOD GOD. He's an awesome wonder!!!! HA HA I have the victory.



I was tellin a sister today "I am having a hard time staying faithful and holding on in this run for Christ" and in responce the sister at my church told me this ...."You can survive you just have to get out there in the deep water where it is crystal clear and then and only then you can see when you try to stay where the banks it is where all kinds of junks lies."

I understand that crystal clear and it doesn sound hard or difficult anymore and I know I can run this race.



Luke 22:40



I am a SOUL WINNER for JESUS!! I am KINGDOM BUILDER!! I am a RECRUITER for Christ!!!

WAKING UP SCREAMING THIS MORNING....

THE ONLY THINGS CROSSING MY MIND ARE GETTING MY HAIR DONE AND MY NAILS DONE....IS THAT TO VAIN AND SHALLOW OR WHAT...I CANT REALLY SAY AND MAYBE THAT MY FAULT...OR MAYBE I AM BEATING MYSELF UP FOR NO REASON. DOES IT EVEN MATTER, OR SHOULD I BE NATURAL... i MEAN SHOULD IT MATTER OR AM I OVER REACTING...WHAT DOES GOD REALLY LOOK AT IS THERE ANYTHING WRONG WITH ME GETTING MY HAIR DONE AND MY NAILS DONE? IS IT LIKE TELLING GOD THAT WHAT HE GAVE ME WASNT GOOD ENOUGH OR NOT...SOMEBODY TALK TO ME GOD TELL ME SOMETHING. I WAKE UP EVERYDAY WITH A BAD HAIR DAY...OR IS IT JUST A MIND THING....I HAVENT WENT NATURAL IN OVER TEN YEARS. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO GET MY NAILS AND TOES DONE ALMOST EVERY TWO WEEKS FAITHFULLY SINCE I WAS ABOUT 13 YEARS OLD...ITS ALMOST LIKE A WAY OF LIFE....SO DO I TURN AROUND OR KEEP TRUCKING THROUGH THIS HORRIBLE PATH

Introducing me....

Today I decided I would write a blog...why I can't exactly say but I have been saying for awhile I would start one I suppose today is that day. I'll start by letting you know a debrief of what my life has been like the past couple of months. For a little while it was as thought my life was on this downward spiral and I couldn's seem to reverse my path for anything and I just kept on falling. I didn't know how to stop myself and It didnt seem as though I wanted too either. I was going from bad to worst to just down and out. I was associating myself with all the wrong people without a second thought. And finally It was like a light clicked on and I HAD no choice but to start praying because I didn't know whether I was going or coming at some moments and everything was so confusing. I cried myself to sleep some nights lost inside of myself and not even happy with what I was allowing myself to do and allowing others to degrade my own being and allowing myself to believe what they thought of me. I started to pray and things started to change. It was not an over night process more like a couple of months but I started seeing Doors opening and other doors being closed. I felt God grab my hand separate me purify me and place my feet on solid ground. And redirect my path to a righteousness for his name sake. (Ha ha ha I like to look at it as though God was saying My daughter I have a totally different plan for your life than the path you were on and you WILL fullfill your destiny.)